GRAMMY AND KLINE
MOM AND DAD'S 80'S PART GET UP
Kline is 43 weeks off topical steroids and it has been a hell of a week.
He has been flaring again, I think because he had a bit of a cold, cough with the damn wheeze.
He's
been back in the bath nearly all day, all week long.....except for a
great night we had when we went to a local ski resort and saw Santa!!!
I
think I am having some kind of post traumatic stress disorder.
Unfortunately, we haven't even gotten to the post part yet! I can not
tolerate loud noises at all...the dog barks, I want to scream. Kline
yells "ice pack" I want to jump out of my skin. I hope by the time Kline
is better I am not so far gone down the rabbit hole of depression and
anxiety that I can't climb out of it.
I am having anger issues
too....very short temper with pretty much everyone that is close to me,
aka hubby, Kline and my parents. So, I am looking into a therapist to
help me work though this crap....watching your baby being tortured all
day and night for a year, can wear you the crap down!!! And I think I
have hit my bottom.....the antidepressants are not working as well
because I changed to a different one and have not yet adjusted.....so of
to therapy I go.
I am amazed at how well my baby copes with
this stuff.......way better than I am or my hubby! He is still in a
good mood most of the time unless he is uncontrollably itchy and in
pain...and he is still just as ornery as ever. So, as long as I don't
mess him up too much, I think he will come out of this ok mentally! ;-)
My
hope is that we will be so much stronger from this hell.....we will be a
more tight knit family...and we will be happy and itch free, able to
Concur anything life throws at us. I hope that Kline will be an even
more kind person and accepting of others with issues of their own.
If
you have been reading my blog you know I am not religious but I hope
that everyday I can be more like Jesus and less like Satan! Lol
Signing off and have a very happy itch-free holiday! As Kline said the other day
"Merry ITCHY Christmas!"He also told me, "Santa wasn't gong to bring me any presents because I am mean to him!" NICE!
Xoxoxo Mama Satan! ;-)
