Friday, December 21, 2012
Honey, please try not to Piss mommy off!
He has been flaring again, I think because he had a bit of a cold, cough with the damn wheeze.
He's been back in the bath nearly all day, all week long.....except for a great night we had when we went to a local ski resort and saw Santa!!!
I think I am having some kind of post traumatic stress disorder. Unfortunately, we haven't even gotten to the post part yet! I can not tolerate loud noises at all...the dog barks, I want to scream. Kline yells "ice pack" I want to jump out of my skin. I hope by the time Kline is better I am not so far gone down the rabbit hole of depression and anxiety that I can't climb out of it.
I am having anger issues too....very short temper with pretty much everyone that is close to me, aka hubby, Kline and my parents. So, I am looking into a therapist to help me work though this crap....watching your baby being tortured all day and night for a year, can wear you the crap down!!! And I think I have hit my bottom.....the antidepressants are not working as well because I changed to a different one and have not yet adjusted.....so of to therapy I go.
I am amazed at how well my baby copes with this stuff.......way better than I am or my hubby! He is still in a good mood most of the time unless he is uncontrollably itchy and in pain...and he is still just as ornery as ever. So, as long as I don't mess him up too much, I think he will come out of this ok mentally! ;-)
My hope is that we will be so much stronger from this hell.....we will be a more tight knit family...and we will be happy and itch free, able to Concur anything life throws at us. I hope that Kline will be an even more kind person and accepting of others with issues of their own.
If you have been reading my blog you know I am not religious but I hope that everyday I can be more like Jesus and less like Satan! Lol
Signing off and have a very happy itch-free holiday! As Kline said the other day
"Merry ITCHY Christmas!"
He also told me, "Santa wasn't gong to bring me any presents because I am mean to him!" NICE!
Xoxoxo Mama Satan! ;-)