Well, in honor of
valentines day I figured I'd talk about chocolate,
The thing forest forgot to add to that saying is......
Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your going to get....
You could get all the crap ass flavor filled ones that no one wants...you know the ones where you take one bite, go yuck, and out it back!
You could get diabetes, cavities, or fat!
Or you could go into antiphylactic shock from a dairy or nut allergy!
You
may be say, Jesus, Loren why the dooms day attitude on such a wonderful
day of love as valentines. Well, our lives of chocolate were starting
to look up. Kline has been getting more and more breaks and I was 15
weeks pregnant. Our future was looking brighter than it has in over a
year.
Until
this Monday,
we went in for our 15 weeks check up and there was no heart beat. Our
little baby was only measuring at 12 weeks so I guess it's heart stopped
beating 3 weeks ago. In a flash our box of yummy chocolates turned into shit flavored chocolates.
So, now just when the light was
getting brighter, Kline was getting better and my depression and out
look on life was getting better, we are thrown for a backwards loop.
Our
dnc was Tuesday and Kline is still a little confused about the baby in
mommy's belly. Although as you know I can't hide anything and have been
Really open and honest with him as to what is happening.
He
told me, "don't worry mommy, one day you will have a baby!". And he is
right, I already have my baby!!! He was a miracal from day one, after
trying for 7 years to get pregnant and doing one round of ivf, Kline
came into our life. Well, worth the wait! So, even if I never have
another baby, we have him and he is amazing! Brave , strong, compassionate and going to change the world!
So, give your babies
and extra hard hug for our little baby In heaven! If you have a baby in
heaven too..I am sure our babies are playing together, and I am sorry
for your loss! I feel you pain and hope that you have a baby on earth to
love like we do.
Xoxo happy valentines day, Loren