The thing forest forgot to add to that saying is......
Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your going to get....
You could get all the crap ass flavor filled ones that no one wants...you know the ones where you take one bite, go yuck, and out it back!
You could get diabetes, cavities, or fat!
You may be say, Jesus, Loren why the dooms day attitude on such a wonderful day of love as valentines. Well, our lives of chocolate were starting to look up. Kline has been getting more and more breaks and I was 15 weeks pregnant. Our future was looking brighter than it has in over a year.
Until this Monday, we went in for our 15 weeks check up and there was no heart beat. Our little baby was only measuring at 12 weeks so I guess it's heart stopped beating 3 weeks ago. In a flash our box of yummy chocolates turned into shit flavored chocolates.
So, now just when the light was getting brighter, Kline was getting better and my depression and out look on life was getting better, we are thrown for a backwards loop.
Our dnc was Tuesday and Kline is still a little confused about the baby in mommy's belly. Although as you know I can't hide anything and have been Really open and honest with him as to what is happening.
He told me, "don't worry mommy, one day you will have a baby!". And he is right, I already have my baby!!! He was a miracal from day one, after trying for 7 years to get pregnant and doing one round of ivf, Kline came into our life. Well, worth the wait! So, even if I never have another baby, we have him and he is amazing! Brave , strong, compassionate and going to change the world!
So, give your babies and extra hard hug for our little baby In heaven! If you have a baby in heaven too..I am sure our babies are playing together, and I am sorry for your loss! I feel you pain and hope that you have a baby on earth to love like we do.
Xoxo happy valentines day, Loren