So, since being house bound for the last 16 months I have missed out on
all the bumper stickers you see around town! Let me tell you they
fucking are pissing me off!
"Got Jesus!" Apparently NOT! ....it's more like we "GOT CRABS!!!!", Than JESUS!
I know some of you will really judge me for being anti Jesus, god and Allah! But fuck!!!!
How
can a god let children suffer so? How can a god let children die of
disease? How can a god let children die at school either by an act of
god, thanks for that act, god.....or a mass shooting?!? How can a god
let huge waves take children away from the families on vacation? How can
a god let children get buried alive? How can a god let children be
homeless? How can a god let children be abused in any form by their
loved ones or other people? How can a god let innocent children be
bombed in their homes? How can a god make a mother suffer by the loss
of their baby of any age?
God, what the fuck is wrong with you?
If you could cue me in on your logic I would really appreciate it
because in my eyes it is totally mother fucking fucked up!
You
are breaking my heart and so many other daily! Could you stop the
shit...stop trying to teach us lessons or whatever the fuck it is you
are trying to prove and just be nice!
Thanks, one pissed off mother of a kid who has suffered way too long!!!!!!!!
Loren
Loren
ReplyDeleteI am very very very sorry you feel this way! I sorry for what you are going through and I know it's not easy...
I do want to say God isn't the problem though, the issue is Sin!
I read through your post which broke my heart, because I am a Christian and know God loves and cares about you and your son. So I hope you can for an sec read through my reply
God truly does love us and created a perfect world with humans who had a will. A will to do right and wrong. Human kind chose to do wrong and there was a cconsequence. Just like when your dear children disobey your rules there is a consequence. You could tell your son until you are blue in the face don't touch the stove its hot and you will get burned. But in the end he will do what he wants to do. Yes you may try and stop him. And be successful. But there will come a day you can't. A day where you will have to let him choose for himself. God is the same. It breaks his heart to see suffering and yes he could stop it but where will the line be drawn. Does he just stop disease, does he stop wars, does he stop every lie we tell, does he basically live for us? No. So suffering is linked to sin. This world was once a perfect place and one day Jesus will come back and this world will be done with. But in the mean time we need to get to know the creator if this universe! God sent his son to die for you, me and your son. Why because he loved us. Because was the only way we could make heaven our homes. Sin had to be dealt with. A good judge doesn't let injustice. How much more so God. We are all sinners and worthy if hellfire. We may like to believe we are good people. But my whose standards? Even a murderer will tell you they are a good person! Heck even there neighbors think they were good people. So who are we fooling. God is merciful and ready to forgive us if we only ask. And then He can begin a work in our lives. My life was a disaster till I became a christian. God has helped me so much. But I had to choose to ask for help. He will not force himself on anyone. His word says I stand at the door a knock... Loren I know your dear son will be healed and live a normal life one day. I know in the mean time this is a living nightmare. I have suffered eczema my entire life. And suffered many other stresses but I assure you God isn't the one you need be mad at! It is Satan! My relationship with Jesus has made my TSW experience so much more bearable. I encourage you to ask Jesus into your heart! I am here for further discussion or chat. Please don't be angry with me. Just have an open mind to what I saying. I really would love to chat with you! Xoxox vee
I didn't quite specify but in the bible often there were spiritual reasons behind physical disease. Family cures passed down from generation to generation. No sin ever went un-dealt with. All the suffering in the world is cumulative effect of everyone's sins. I know not everyone believes in Jesus and God. But I have first hand seen God change my life and many others! So I just had to share! I hope you don't take offense. As I didn't take offense to your post. I know you are hurting and frustrated.
DeleteI get all that...but why make the innocent suffer?
DeleteI would gladly take the tsa for my sins but Kline suffering for mine or others sins is not right!
DeleteWell none of us are innocent. While yes your sweet son is innocent now, he will grow up and commit sins like anyone else. Sin effects everybody . there is a scripture that talks about our sins affecting even our grandkids. Makes you you think twice about what you do. If you say were drinking and driving and had children in the car and everyone got hurt those children unfortunately had to pay the price for your mistake. It shows we are all connected to one another. And truly don't just live our own lives. But we are all apart of(for lack of better words) the circle of life. I think you are amazing for toughing this out with your son! It shows great love and commitment. I wish my mom would have done this for me. Yes eczema was awful as a kid but honestly as an adult I have found it worse. You just keep doing what you are doing. And ask God for comfort. He isn't your enemy. Thanks for being so kind to respond to me and taking my words to heart. I really appreciate that! And I know he will be well before you know it! Xoxox
DeleteSex, Religion and politics. All are subjects that we should be able to talk about. Unfortunately, they are not. People have their beliefs and they are entitled to have them. But I ask, What sin has Kline committed? His only sin was listening to the Doctors that hurt him and his family and friends. So damn the doctors that are too conceited to listen to their suffering patients. not the people they harm. They that know all, know nothing! Comfort those that are suffering, when they are suffering so much, they can't be swayed to change. Can all the suffering in the world be blamed on one apple?
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DeleteFor sure Kline is the innocent party here. However we are all born into a sinful world. The suffering isn't only a result of the 'apple'. It wasn't an apple actually. It didn't just stop at the apple but moved to murder, greed, children out of wedlock, liars, pride. The list goes on and on right? If your parent were say serial killers. You would have to live the consequence of that. Whether it be stigma or perhaps even growing with all sorts of phycological issues that the average kid wouldn't have. For us TSW people we are paying the price of doctors misjudgments. We are lucky this suffering is short term and fixable. I speaking of greater suffering. Kline will be healed and much better one day! One day soon I hope!
Loren,
ReplyDeleteBlake here, I see your posts from time to time. It looks like a struggle everyday for you and your trooper Kline. It breaks my heart to see this happen, and if there is anything I can do or if you want to talk, feel free to reach out. I noticed your lashing out about God, well you probably know, I do not believe in God or sin. I think the best thing we can do is help each other, and I sure hope there is a better solution to the ongoing daily problems you are faced with.
Hey Blake! So funny for some reason I thought you were religious. Tha you so much for the offer. You are so sweet. Did you know I had the biggest crush on your in high school. Lol omg so funny! You playing that piano! Lol how imbarassing! Thanks again and hope you and your family are great! Xoxox Loren
ReplyDeleteI don't think god causes pain. The pain we see and suffer is caused by choices people make sometimes our own choices and sometimes the choices of others or nature. But I do believe that god is always with us giving us the strength to face another day and helping us by surrounding us with people who love us. I believe that god is in the love in the healing in the good that comes from or despite the bad. I will never know the reason people good people are tortured with tragedy but I firmly believe that god won't leave us alone when we suffer or have joy. For me god is everything good and helps me find the next best way to show or share love despite the suffering. I'm so sorry Kline is still suffering so much my heart truly breaks for u and I am amazed at your strength.
ReplyDeletethank you for your kind response!xxoo
DeleteWow Loren! You are so straight up, thanks for revealing you had a crush. If only you told me then or maybe you could have, I was not good at picking up clues. Anyway, you have always been a beautiful person and I am stunned that you that crush. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteLol no I never told you I was way too shy! But I sure did go to a lot of minus tirath concerts ?on spelling? Lol I was such a dork.
DeleteOh Loren!! My heart goes out to you! Like Vee, I too am a Christian. Like you, I too have been REALLY angry with God and wondered why He allowed so much suffering. It actually started my first year out of nursing school when I worked with kids with cancer. I was in a constant struggle wondering why such good people suffered so - especially the children! But God opened my eyes - not in a huge way, but enough so I believed He was real. One particular teenager I took care of was dying - he had 2 chest tubes in place - one in each lung - his cancer was everywhere and his parents knew it was just a matter of days. He couldn't lie down because of the fluid in his lungs making him choke (even with the chest tubes in). He slept sitting up for days being held up by his friends and family. I was holding him when all of a sudden he sat straight up looked at me and said "I love you and I will see you later". Then he hugged me. He did this with every one of his family members and friends who all happened to be there at that time. He even stood up to hug his grandmother. He then said he was tired and was going to sleep. He lied down and fell asleep peacefully. I was beyond astonished given he had not woken up in days. He died within the hour and for some reason this was my turning point. He was so happy to be going to sleep - he seemed 100% sure he was going to see us all later. He gave me back my belief in God and Heaven. I have so many stories - even miracles I have witnessed. But yet I still doubted at times. When I was going through my first withdrawal (unknown to me at the time) and my kids were 1, 3, and 4 yrs old, I remember yelling at God- being so angry because I could not be the mother I knew I could be. I was so unable to care for my own kids! I was angry He took me away from them for a period of time. And even now I get a touch angry. But I have come to realize what Vee explained - it is not God causing all this affliction, shootings, and horrible things. I find comfort knowing there is a perfect place waiting for us after we die. It has been hard for me to accept Jesus - my biggest thing is I am not worthy - none of us are, but I feel like I cannot accept a free gift - especially one paid at such a high price. But I cannot change what Jesus did - I can only accept it and change my life for Him. It is still not easy for me to see suffering and pain, but it has been made easier knowing we all die and all our suffering does come to an end. Sounds horrible when I say we all die - but it is a truth that cannot be ignored - just like a birth cannot be ignored. It has taken me nearly 20 years to sort out my feelings and beliefs of God - I have read countless books! I have sought answers to my questions. It is a personal thing but one that should be shared in order to help others! My sister once told me that it was actually a good thing I was angry with God, because it showed that I believed He existed! Hoping Kline gets 100% healed soon!!
ReplyDeleteOh Loren, My heart goes out to you, I'm a Christian and I totally get where your coming from. I've called and yelled to God about this very thing. Further to what Tracey and Vee have said... There is so much sadness and evil in the world because we live in a fallen world. It sucks and it's NOT FAIR!!!! It's hard for us to understand His way but that's where faith steps in. God is LOVE! He is gentle, kind, loving and forgiving. He also gives us the strength and the peace to get through the toughest of places. the poem "Footprints" tell of when He carries us when we can't walk ourselves. One day we will understand why things are as they are, but in the meantime, please know HE LOVES YOU. His peace is incomparable. PHIL 4:6-9 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable -- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy -- think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me -- put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you " Hang in there. You are doing a wonderful job with your beautiful boy. Love and hugs xxxx
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