I have had so many friends, family members and complete strangers show there support since my last atheist post! ;) I guess there is someone out there looking after us, sending us love and healing thoughts!
Thank you all for the support, I was in a very dark space yesterday, ah, hell, the last 17 days! This still really sucks the big one, but it is nice to know how many people care about Kline, Denny and I!
So, no we are not on full gaps, we are on stage 2.... I think I am going to try to bring in more veggies baked to help with our constipation......stage 1 was miserable, let's hope stage 2 doesn't kill us! If we can start shittin' I think our detox would be much less intense, at least I hope!
Today, I lost my shit in front of Kline, yet again! Actually at least 2x's!!! My little peanut was so sweet. He tried playing music for me on his tamboreen, tried to make me laugh, and even asked me to pick him up so he could wipe away my tears! I wish I was always so compassionate to him at 3 in the morning. Don't get me wrong, he can be a total shit sometimes, but deep down inside, under all of his oozing, itchy, burning, scaly, scabbed and scarred skin, he is an angel! I just want to give a shout out to god for giving me Kline! Yes, I may dislike you god sometimes, but over all as Anne frank said, "despite of everything, I still believe the world is good!" (don't quote me on that! Have read or acted that play out in years!!)
I hope one day that he will not need to sooth his mama and make things all better for me. That is NOT his job!!!! That is my job, and hopefully I can completely fulfill it.
THank you all,
In complete ahhhhhhhh, Loren
Not being able to stop Kline's pain and suffering is the toughest thing you will have to do in life. Try that on no sleep and all the other distractions and worries and it will drive you crazy. Accept the love and help from your friends and family, I used to get short with you when we would study your spelling, you didn't want anything to do with school work. I remember it to this day. And I regret feeling frustrated with my beautiful little girl. Stay strong. Love Kline everyday, all day! We love you! Mar and Dad
ReplyDeleteI hope you'll get some kind of relief soon. It breaks my heart to see your family suffering! Stay strong, we got your back!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks guys! Another sleepless night, ugh! Xoxo
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